Don't let me be lonely

In all honesty I didn't mind this book.

Compared to our other readings this one made a lot more sense. The focus is very human, on the pain of life, and it doesn't run and hide from anything.

If something looks or feels fake, that is stated. There isn't some huge deal about nothing- there are gut reactions, such as reading a lable on a bottle of pills that says you can't give them away and then desiring to give them away anyway, but it doesn't say that the whole world should simply burn.

The author leaves thoughts openended, so the reader is at liberty to finish them or put them down.

Drugs are a huge part of this entire book. There are many facts to life, and few solutions. Somehow you have to put all the pieces together to make them fit, and if they don't fit, you need to fill in the gaps. This is a dangerous game to play, because those gaps if you're truly honest with yourself often times cannot be filled. They leave you, as the book would say, lonely.

Lonliness is not a curse, not a poison, it is a gift. You hear about monks of every religion abstaining from food, drink, sex, and other "worldly" supports to a normal functioning human life. There is something powerful in the void, something they seek, and something this author also seeks- although she doesn't find it in the end. She's still looking. She's looked at God, but He remains one of those unanswered questions.

It's easier to take a pill than have to think and sort things out, but the beauty of life is that it does make sense if you look at it through the One who is real.